Cruise Phase Day 4 - PV

9:30AM

Weight: 52.4 (-0.0) STUCK!!!!!!!!!

Fat Percentage: 30.1% (+0.5%) 

Total Weight Lost: 1.9 kg

Total Fat Percentage Dropped: 0.7%

My weight has been the same for the past 4 or 5 days... this is just frustrating.

yes I know I haven't been following the Dukan Diet religiously, but I've still been completely deprived of a lot of food!!! I feel like I'm going insane.

I was just getting ready to go out and put on a cardigan that I haven't worn for a long time. and the arms area fits so tightly as expected and I just look so FAT. When I put it on I had a moment of uncontrollable anger that almost bursted out of me. I swear its a good thing I'm alone at home. I'm just so ANGRY. ANGRY for letting myself go to the point of no return (just a figure of speech.. I'm TRYING TO return now). ANGRY that I'm so ugly and fat now, HATE the way I look, and HATE always being jealous of my sister because she's so skinny and keeps her eating under control so well. ANGRY that losing weight is so hard and it's definitely not going so well. WORRIED that this Friday I'll have to go out and drink with people and I will completely ruin my 2 weeks of hard work. 

YES I know I'm just in a huge rut right now and I'm WHINING!!! 

I promise I will be more POSITIVE and keep working hard on this diet. On Friday I'm gonna have fun with friends and not COMPLETELY trash my diet by going over board and then hop back on the wagon and work hard work hard WORK HARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!