DIE DIE DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!
I CHEATED today... And it's no small cheat, it's a MAJOR cheat... Arghhhh I'm so mad at myself I'm really trying to get over it now.
Everything was fine today.
I slept well all through the night till 11 AM
Weight: 51.9 kg (-0.4)
Body Fat Percentage: 29.9% (-0.1)
Total Weight Lost: 2.4 kg
Freakin good right??? Like finally!!!
So I had a nice brunch.. The usual oatbran porridge and didn't have an extra mug of skim milk this time. I also made myself a nice tuna omelette with low-fat cheese. And I had 4 packs of Korean seaweed - not all in one sitting but throughout the morning while I sat around watching TV.
Then I decided to get off my lazy ass, go out to Starbucks to read before my body combat class at 6. And then... I passed by that new bakery again and I knew they had samples, I hesitated but still decided to walk in and gobbled down like 5 samples and since the place is quite small with only one other customer, I felt bad and embarrassed for eating all the samples without buying anything. So I made a rash and horrible... Like really HORRIBLE decision... to just buy one bread and throw it away later. I know I'm such a bad person and COMPLETELY insane :( Once I left the bakery and crossed the road to the bus stop, I decided I'll just take a few bites and throw the rest away once my bus arrives. Within seconds my bus arrives and I saw the bus driver see me nibble on a big piece of bread and I panicked and was like I can't throw it away now?! He'll see me do it and think what a waste!!! And so I hopped on the bus with the big forbidden piece of carby deliciousness in my hands.. And you've proli guessed it, by the time i got off the bus, the bread that was as big as my face (or bigger) has shrunk to the size of my palm. A few more steps down the road towards Starbucks, I had eaten the whole.damn.thing...
As if this was not enough. I rationalized with myself that I'll have my carb fix today and since I've cheated I might as well try that apple and cranberry yogurt parfait I've been eyeing at Starbucks for the past week. They even gave me a pack of crunchy cereal with raisins in it to go with it!!! I wolfed it down in a matter of minutes, a million thoughts going through my head. But oh it tasted like heaven... And I have gone to hell.
Im really hoping this slip up doesn't cause my body to react negatively since I haven't had this much carbs and sugar for the past 1.5 weeks. Man it's only been 1.5 weeks and it seems like forever. I'm happy with my progress today but so mad at myself for ruining it and totally going off track. Normally I'd proli go all out on a carb binge tonight and start over tomorrow. But I ain't gonna do that. This will be it for today. It's almost 4pm and I was planning to have a chicken salad for dinner but I've more than made up for that. Yes I have. I'm gonna have one day of attack phase tomorrow. And then oh no it's going to be Friday and it's girls night out!!! On the bright side, since I had a slip up today and got my carb fix maybe I won't go crazy on Friday? I hope so, I really gotta have faith in myself!
I CHEATED today... And it's no small cheat, it's a MAJOR cheat... Arghhhh I'm so mad at myself I'm really trying to get over it now.
Everything was fine today.
I slept well all through the night till 11 AM
Weight: 51.9 kg (-0.4)
Body Fat Percentage: 29.9% (-0.1)
Total Weight Lost: 2.4 kg
Freakin good right??? Like finally!!!
So I had a nice brunch.. The usual oatbran porridge and didn't have an extra mug of skim milk this time. I also made myself a nice tuna omelette with low-fat cheese. And I had 4 packs of Korean seaweed - not all in one sitting but throughout the morning while I sat around watching TV.
Then I decided to get off my lazy ass, go out to Starbucks to read before my body combat class at 6. And then... I passed by that new bakery again and I knew they had samples, I hesitated but still decided to walk in and gobbled down like 5 samples and since the place is quite small with only one other customer, I felt bad and embarrassed for eating all the samples without buying anything. So I made a rash and horrible... Like really HORRIBLE decision... to just buy one bread and throw it away later. I know I'm such a bad person and COMPLETELY insane :( Once I left the bakery and crossed the road to the bus stop, I decided I'll just take a few bites and throw the rest away once my bus arrives. Within seconds my bus arrives and I saw the bus driver see me nibble on a big piece of bread and I panicked and was like I can't throw it away now?! He'll see me do it and think what a waste!!! And so I hopped on the bus with the big forbidden piece of carby deliciousness in my hands.. And you've proli guessed it, by the time i got off the bus, the bread that was as big as my face (or bigger) has shrunk to the size of my palm. A few more steps down the road towards Starbucks, I had eaten the whole.damn.thing...
As if this was not enough. I rationalized with myself that I'll have my carb fix today and since I've cheated I might as well try that apple and cranberry yogurt parfait I've been eyeing at Starbucks for the past week. They even gave me a pack of crunchy cereal with raisins in it to go with it!!! I wolfed it down in a matter of minutes, a million thoughts going through my head. But oh it tasted like heaven... And I have gone to hell.
Im really hoping this slip up doesn't cause my body to react negatively since I haven't had this much carbs and sugar for the past 1.5 weeks. Man it's only been 1.5 weeks and it seems like forever. I'm happy with my progress today but so mad at myself for ruining it and totally going off track. Normally I'd proli go all out on a carb binge tonight and start over tomorrow. But I ain't gonna do that. This will be it for today. It's almost 4pm and I was planning to have a chicken salad for dinner but I've more than made up for that. Yes I have. I'm gonna have one day of attack phase tomorrow. And then oh no it's going to be Friday and it's girls night out!!! On the bright side, since I had a slip up today and got my carb fix maybe I won't go crazy on Friday? I hope so, I really gotta have faith in myself!
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